But let me tell
you how my month has been and perhaps you will understand me a
May was a great
month for me. A celebration month! I celebrated 2 years of
being married, I celebrated Cornel Rostas graduation, the first
Gypsy boy to achieve High School Graduation. I celebrated a good
start to the mission trip season and some other small things that
brought lots of smiles on my face!!
So why was this
month different? Well, maybe because Iíve had several Ďnegativeí
things happening around me.
At the beginning
of June, I received a phone call from a dear friend telling me
that she suspects she has cancer. So a few weeks later, she went
to the doctor to get lots of test done. (She is still waiting to
have the final results). While talking to her about the situation
she told me "Maria, I canít take it anymore. Iíve had enough.
Too much for me".
I was really
surprised to hear her saying this especially that she is one of
the people that Iím looking up to so many times. I admire her a
lot. So hearing this made me wonder why she would say these
words?! Soon after that I stopped judging her and I looked at how
I react when something goes wrong. And I realised, I have my
On June 8th
I was at the maternity hospital in the city because a dear
person close to me gave birth to a wonderful baby girl. While
waiting for this miracle to happen, I was talking to a few young
ladies that were there and they started to tell me their life
stories. One told me that the doctor had told her to do an
abortion. She was 4 months into the pregnancy but because the baby
was Down Syndrome, there was no point to bring him on this earth!
Another one told me that she was working on the field and she fell
and lost the baby. Another one told me that she is expecting her 8th
child and because she did not want to have an abortion as the
doctor suggested, she will now struggle with raising the child.
All ended up with the same phrase "Iíve had enough. I canít
take it anymore".
On June 17th
and 18th I had the nursery and school graduations.
If you ask me how we managed another academic year through all the
financial challenges we have to face in this country, I would
answer you ĎONLY THROUGH GODíS GRACEí! It was an amazing
time for me to see little Natasha (Iíve told you many times
about her during this academic year) saying her poem LOUD in front
of so many people, made my day. It also made me cry! Last
September she did not say a word. She was wild in a true meaning
of the word. Now, because of the love we showed her, she is a new
As a reward of
their hard work at the end of the school year, we at Smiles always
give them a chocolate! It might not mean a lot to you or to kids
that have everything. But for these kids it means a lot! For me to
take £200/$300 from the budget in order to buy chocolates was a
lot too. Why? Because £200/$300 goes a long way for me in Tileagd.
I can buy food for one week. I can buy a truck of wood in order to
have it for the winter. I can pay the electricity bill for one
month. BUT IíM HAPPY that this time I chose to buy chocolate! Iím
thankful for every single person that donates money towards the
Tileagd project. I know it is hard to choose each month where
your money goes, but Iím thankful when you choose Tileagd!
In just a few days
I have a meeting with the management team and Mr Hoy to talk about
budgets. I never look forward to this annual meeting! At this
moment in time, I know that the Tileagd project which includes
nursery, school, community, medical and the church, is in deficit
with £7000/$10,500, which is a little over £1000/$1,500 each
When I hear and
see figures like this I often say "Iíve had enough, I canít take
it anymore". But soon I remember. MY GOD IS A GREAT BIG GOD!
And HE will find ways to make it work!!
please pray for me and please pray for the project. I know life is
hard. I know we have expenses everywhere. I know that it is so
easy to give up, but I do not want to see this project close or
cut back. I want to see this project able to start another
academic year in September without being in deficit all the time.
To be honest, we have really learnt over the years how to live and
operate with less but to do the same job at the same level of
Things like this,
pressure like this, at times makes me say "God, I canít do it.
Iíve had enough! Iím too small"
BUT Iím thankful
for the little things that make me happy! And on this note I want
to close my report this month. Iím happy when I see kids
graduating nursery and moving on into the school. Iím happy when I
see kids graduating 8th grade or High School. Iím also
very happy when I see the progress being made at JFL in Salonta,
or in the Rapa community.
Iím happy when I
can share my sadness and my joys with people like you. People
that PRAY for me, for my team here in Romania and for the
Projects. People that give their time to come and spend here
with us. People that send their financial support in order for us
to continue doing the job!
Iím thankful for
all these things and if you can help me these months to operate
without deficit, I will be so thankful to you for your kindness.
Iím happy when MY
GOD is telling me Ďwhen Iím weak He is strongí and ĎHis Grace is
sufficient for meí. I know that my real home is in Heaven and all
the things I face here on earth on a daily basis (and they are
quite a few) is just a test to make me a better person and
preparing me for my eternal home!
So be blessed dear
friends and thank you for being a blessing to me, my people here
in Romania and my project.